What is with the name Kathy? -There will be another blog connected to this. Will be posted in a couple days.-

Kathy is woke up by her phone playing one of the most stupid songs she's ever heard, but her friend sent it to her, it's the least she could do. Or at least Kathy thought so when she programmed it as her text message alert.

She rolled over and grabed her phone.

"wut up?"
She blinked a few times. Looked at the time, 'what the hell?', she thought to herself as she quickly pressed a reply.
"Nothin much. Sittin at home. What's up there?"
She shook her head a couple times and rubbed her eyes. Put her phone back down and laid her head on the pillows. 'Ugh!' She thought when she heard that ring tone again.

"I'm in (insert name of town), wanna meet up?"
Her heart starts beating hard. Harder as she taps in her reply.
"Where would I be going if I do?"
She waits. She could feel her heart beat in her fingertips. Her phone vibrates and starts singing.
"Wal-Mart."
Hits reply. "Alright. Give me a couple to get ready." Hits send.
Vibrates. "Hurry up, I don't know how much longer I'll be here."
Reply. "Alright." Send.

Kathy hops up. Never in her life has she ever gotten up that fast. Ran into the bathroom and quickly got ready. 'Oh my god!' She thought to herself as water ran down her face and hit the bottom of the tub. 'What am I doing? What am I thinking? This is crazy!'

Gets dressed and puts on a little make up. Not much, just enough.

Her phone goes off. "I'm fixing to leave. Where are you at?"
Reply. "I'm walking out the door. Stay put!" Send.
Vibrates. "I will try."

Runs to her car and sits there for a moment to catch her breath. 'Three years.' She thought to herself. Checks herself in her mirror and backs out of her driveway.

Cranks up the radio and takes off down the road.

When she pulls into Wal-Mart she opens her phone. Create message. "Where are you at?" Send.
Vibrates. "Front door."
She smiles. Bites her lower lip. Reply. "I see you." Send.
Takes a deep breath. Vibrates. "I see you to. :)" Her heart beats even faster. She feels like she's about to vomit.

She walks up to Kyle, whom she hasn't seen in nearly three years, and smiles.
"It's been awhile."
She chuckles. "It has. You haven't changed."
He smiles. That smile. That one and true smile. There it was. Gleaming. Her heart melted. "You have."
Kathy runs her fingers through her hair. "It happens, I guess." Shrug.
"You look good, though." Smile.
"You too." She smiles. Fidget.
He looks over his shoulder. "Uh, they are in a hurry. Do you know where the public pool is?" He backs up slowly.
"I do." She lied.
"That's where we're going. I'll text you when we get there. Meet me there?!"
Shakes her head. "Alright."

She walks back to her car and drives on home.

After a few minutes of sitting at home her phone vibrates. Her heart stops.

Opens phone. "Alright, we're here, come on."
Reply. "Alright, be there in a few." Send.

When she arrives she sends him a message asking "where are you located?"
Vibrate. "By diving board."

She slowly makes her walk over in that direction. Sees him. Heart stops.
Gulp! 'Oh my god!' She thought to herself when she seen the pregnant girl next to him. She goes dumb for a moment. Looks around. 'Maybe they are "friends".' Walks up to him.

He looks up to Kathy standing there. Smiles and sticks his tongue out at her. Continues to smile. Kathy goes breathless. 'Oh how I've missed that smile.'

The thing you have to realize about Kathy is that her feelings for Kyle never stopped. They never faded. Even after three years. Everytime they talk all she does is think about him. She has wondered for a while if the feelings were actually still there. Until she seen him in person she'd never know.

When they broke up he left state. Told her he wouldn't be coming back if everything worked out like he planned. She told him have a nice life. After about three months of being apart he got back in touch with her. Apologized for breaking up like they did and apologized for hurting her. He had a girlfriend at that point.

They continued to talk and decided if nothing else friendship is better than nothing. She was happy with that. She wanted him in her life because of the feelings she had for him.

After a few months she found out that he still liked her. That when they were together he actually loved her. They both said they'd always love each other, no matter what. She was happy with that. She believed it.

So when he texted her that morning she was so giddy. Giddy. Happy. But she thought he was single. How dumb could Kathy really be?

"Hey?" Kathy said.

Kathy sat down at a table and watched them get in the pool. Watched them swim around. Watched him smile at the girl in the pool. That smile! The smile she wanted. The smile she longed for. 'Oh how stupid could I be?' she thought to herself as she continued to watch.

Kyle swam to the side to look up at Kathy.
"What's wrong?" He said with sad eyes.
Kathy shook her head. "Nothing."
"Liar." He said as he jumped up on the side of the pool.
She leaned her head back and looked up at the sky.

She sat like that. Looking up at the sky for a long time.
"Wake up sleepy head!" She heard Kyle say as she got soaked with water.
"You freaking loser!" Kathy smiled at Kyle.
He laughed. "Sorry, I couldn't help myself."
"I bet." She said with a smirk.

He looked up at her again. Girlfriend came closer to him. He backed away.
"Kathy, what's wrong?" He said in caring voice.
'Like he fucking cares!' She thought before saying "nothing. I'm tired." Gulp.

That's the moment she remembered she cannot lie to him. Nothing can get past him. Of everybody in her life that was and still is the only person that can see through her. Know when she is sad. Hurt. Mad. He knows. She knows he knows. And he knows, she knows he knows.

She held back the tears when she seen them kiss. Deep breath. Deep breath. Deep breath. 'What am I still doing here?' She thought looking back up at the sky. 'I so could just get up and walk away. Go home. Stop watching this.' She felt her heart crumble.

She watched as Kyle got out of the pool.
"Want some water?" He bent down.
Kathy shook her head. "Not really. I'm pretty full of water. But thank you anyway."
"Aww, come on. Just a little." Then he poured water down her head.
He laughs and runs away. Kathy stands up and gives him a look.
He pouts. "Aww, you still love me." He smiled.
"I'm not so sure." She was pissed. Pissed beyond belief. Not because he got her wet. She was hot, that didn't bother her.
He got serious. "Please don't say that."
He walked over to her and put his arms out.
"I'm really not so sure anymore." She blurted out before thinking about it.
He came closer and wrapped his arms around her.
Sigh.
Heart beat.
Sigh.
She wraps her arms around him.
'Please don't let go.' She thought as she stood there embraced by the only man to make her feel complete. The only man who made her feel beautiful. The only man she ever had strong feelings for.

That's the moment in time when it stopped. When all her questions were answered. Every question she had. Every thing was perfect.

Her feelings were still there and there is absolutely nothing she could do about it.

Nothing.

Sigh.

He let go. He smiled. Heart melted.

"Keep in touch, please." He said as he walked away.

'Keep in touch. Psh!' She thought as she watched him walk away.

When she got home she felt stupid. Stupid beyond stupid. Ignorant even. What the hell was she actually thinking? That after three years it would just go back to the way it was? That he'd admit his feelings and say that he wanted to pick back up where they left off? Why would she, being in her right mind, really believe that.

She laughed at herself. "You dumb fucking bitch!"

That's the moment the tears fell.

She remembered how it felt when he left. The alcohol she drank to hide the pain. Try to get rid of it. She remember the pain she felt when it ended. And she cried. Cried because of him leaving. Cried because he didn't want her again. Cried because she seen him happy and she's miserable. Just cried.

As the days pass Kathy decided it was probably for best. Now that she knows he is unreachable. Not coming back more than a friend. She now knows that she can move on. Her questions were answered, but doesn't mean she cannot move on. Just something she needed to do.

A few days after wards she found herself checking out guys not thinking about him.

She smiled.

Love until later.